Dreamer

This is an overlong but extremely well written fanfic from leonidaslion. No typos, just beautiful prose and chock full of ANGST!! The story parallels the first two seasons of Supernatural written from Sam's perspective. At Stanford Sam lusts after his brother after watching a gay porno of Dean online. Following Jess's death, the brothers team up again but Dean carries a horrendous secret buried in his psyche.

' Things can't possibly get any worse. Except this is Dean, who seems to attract sorrow like the gleam of gold attracts magpies, and Sam can't shake the fear that it can get worse. It can actually get a lot worse.'